I can’t stand it anymore. I’m always at home doing nothing or at my neighbors house and it is so boring. I have nothing to do and no where to go. My family always leaves me home alone and even when they are here its still like im alone. I swear I might end up doing something drastic… and no not suicide. I might take the bus somewhere alone. Thing is I might get lost or raped, scary. All my friends live far and the only one that lives near me, her mother never lets her go anywhere. I wish somewhere would hire me, or I could find somewhere close by to volunteer at.

-About the last post. I didn’t end up going out with Mike. But I am helping him with a girl problem now, lol.

I made up with Mike… :). hahaha. I was starting to miss him so I texted him and asked if he was still mad at me. Then later he called me and we talked about what had happened. He asked me out again, but I said I just wanted to stay friends.
Next day, when we were talking, he just took a little teddy bear out of his bag and gave it to me too. He said he just had it. lol Then I carried it around the next day. He’s mean… but he’s sweet too. I think I might say yes to him, but im afraid to. The school year is ending soon, should I just have fun while it lasts? Should I follow my heart or my mind?